1. Once
I admit it...whatīs to say
Iīll relive it...without pain
Backstreet lover on the side of the road
I got a bomb in my temple that is gonna explode
I got a .16 gauge buried under my clothes...I play
Once upon a time I could control myself
Once upon a time I could lose myself
Oh try and mimic..whatīs insane
I am in it...where do I stand?
Indian summer I hate the heat
I got a backstreet lover on the passenger seat
I got my hand in my pocket so determined discreet...I pray
Once upon a time I could control myself
Once upon a time I could lose myself
Once upon a time I could love myself
Once upon a time I could love you
Once
Once
Once
2. Even Flow
Freezinī, rests his head on a pillow made of concrete, again
Oh, Feelinī maybe heīll see a little betters any days
Oh, head down, faces that he sees donīt look it ainīt that familiar
Oh, girlfriend he canīt have when heīs happy looks insane, oh yeah
Even flow
Thoughts arrive like butterflies
Oh, he donīt know
So he chases them away
Someday yet heīll begin his life again
Life againn
Kneelinī, looking through the paper though he doesnīt know to read
Prayinī, now to something that has never showed him anything
Oh, feelinī, understands the weather or that winters on its way, yeah
Oh, ceilins people fall between all the legal halls of shame
Even flow
Thoughts arrive like butterflies
Oh, he donīt know
So he chases them away
Someday yet heīll begin his life again
Whispering hands, carry him away
Him away, him away
Yeah!
3. Alive
Son, she said
Have I got a little story for you
What you thought was your daddy
Was nothinī but a....
While you were sittinī
Home alone @ age thirteen
Your real daddy was dyinī
Sorry you didnīt see him
But Iīm glad we talked...
I...I...Iīm still alive
I...I...Iīm still alive
I...I...Iīm still alive
Oh she walks slowly
Across a young manīs room
She said Iīm ready...for you
I canīt remember anything to this very day
īCept the look...the look...oh you know where
Now I canīt see,...I just stare...
I...I...Iīm still alive
I...I...Iīm still alive
I...I...Iīm still alive
I...I...Iīm still alive
Is something wrong..she said
Of course there is
Youīre still alive..she said
Do I deserve to be
Is that the question
And if so,...if so...
Who answers?
Who answers?
I...I...Iīm still alive
I...I...Iīm still alive
I...I...Iīm still alive
I...Iīm still alive
yeah yeah yeah yeah
4. Why Go
She scratches a letter
Into a wall made of stone
Maybe someday..another child
Wonīt feel as alone as she does
Itīs been two years and counting
Since they put her in this place
Sheīs been diagnosed by some stupid fuck
And mommy agrees
Why go home?
Why go home?
why go home...
She seems to be stronger
But what they want her to be is weak
She could just pretend
She could play the game
She could be another clone
Why go home?
What you taught me
Donīt come visit
Put me here
Mommy dea
5. Black
Sheets of empty canvas, untouched sheets of plain
Her legs spread out before me as her body holds still
All five horizons revolved around her soul as the earth to the sun
Now the air I tasted and breathed has taken a turn
Oooo, and all I taught her was everything
Oooo, I know she gave me yarn that she wore
And now my bitter hands shake beneath the clouds of what was everything
All the pictures sent all been washed in black
...Tattooed everything
I take a walk outside, Iīm surrounded by some kids at play
I can feel their laughter, so why do I sear?
And twisted thoughts that spin round my head, Iīm spinninī
Oh Iīm spinninī, how quick a sun can drop away
And now my bitter hands cradle broken glass of what was everything
All the pictures sent all been washed in black
...Tattooed everything
All the love gone bad turned my world to black
Tattooed all I see, all that I am, all that Iīll be yeaheah
Uhuh...uhuh...oooh
I know someday youīll have a beautiful life
I know youīll be a sun in somebody elseīs sky
But why, why, why canīt it be...how can I be more?
6. Jeremy
At home
Drawing pictures
Of mountain tops
With him on top
Lemin yellow sun
Arms raised in a V
Dead lay in pools of maroon below
Daddy didnīt give attention
To the fact that mommy didnīt care
King jeremy the wicked
Ruled his world
Jeremy spoke in class today
Jeremy spoke in class today
Clearly I remember
Pickinī on the boy
Seemed a harmless little fuck
But we unleashed a lion
Gnashed his teeth and bit the recessed ladyīs breast
How could I forget
He hit me with a surprise left
My jaw left hurtin
Dropped wide open
Just like the day
Like the day I heard
Daddy didnīt give affection
And the boy was something that mommy wouldnīt wear
King Jeremy the wicked
Ruled his world
Jeremy spoke in class today
Jeremy spoke in class today
Try to forget this...
Try to erase this...
From the blackboard.
7. Oceans
Hold on to the thread
The currents will shift
Guide me towards you
Know somethingīs left
And weīre all allowed to dream
Ot the next time we touch........
You donīt have to stray
Two oceans away
Waves roll in my thoughts
Hold tight the ring
The sea will rise
Please stand by the shore
I will be
I will be
There once more.....
8. Porch
What the fuck is this world running to?
You didnīt leave a message
At least I could have heard your voice one last time
Daily minefield
This could be my time
How ībout you?
Would you hit me?
Would you hit me?
All the bills go by
And initiatives are taken up
By the middle
There ainīt gonna be any middle any more
And the cross Iīm bearing home
Ainīt indicative of my place
Left the porch
Left the porch
Hear my name
Take a good look
This could be the day
Hold my hand
Walk beside me
I just need to say...
Hear my name
Take a good look
This could be the day
Hold my hand
Lie beside me
I just need to say
What can I take?
I just want to be
I know that I would not ever touch you
Hold you
Feel you
Ever hold
Never again
9. Garden
The direction of the eye
So misleading
The defection of the soul
Nauseously quick
I donīt question
Our existence
I just question
Our modern needs
I will walk...with my hands bound
I will walk...with my face blood
I will walk...with my shadow flag
Into your garden
Garden of stone
After all is done
Weīre still alone
I wonīt be taken
Yet Iīll go...
I will walk...with my hands bound
I will walk...with my face blood
I will walk...with my shadow flag
Into your garden
Garden of stone
I donīt show...
I donīt share...
I donīt need
What you have to give...
10. Deep
On the edge
Windowsill
Ponders his maker
Ponders his will
To the street below
He just ainīt nothinī
But heīs got a great view..
on the edge
know-nothinī town
feelinī quite superior
the aged come
to the sky above
he just ainīt nothinī
but heīs got a great view...
canīt touch the bottom
in too deep
canīt touch the bottom
On the edge of a
Christmas clean love
Young virgin from heaven
Visiting
To the man above her
She just ainīt nothinī
She doesnīt like the view
Doesnīt like the view
Doesnīt like the view
But he sinks himself deep
Canīt touch the bottom
In too deep
Canīt touch the bottom
11. Release
I see the world
Feel the truth
Which way to go
Windowsill
I see the words
On a rocking horse of time
I see the birds in the rain
Oh dear diane
Can you see me now
I am myself
Like you somehow
Iīll ride the wave
Where it takes me
Iīll hold the pain
Release me
Oh dear diane
Can you see me now
I am myself
Like you somehow
Iīll wait up in the dark
For you to speak to me
Iīll open up
Release me
Release me
Release me
Release me
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