1. The Grudge
wear your grudge like a crown of negativity
calculate what we will or will not tolerate
desperate to control all and everything
unable to forgive you scarlet lettermen
clutch it like a cornerstone, otherwise it all comes down
justified denials and crippled to the lonesome end
clutch it like a cornerstone, otherwise it all comes down
terrified of being wrong
ultimatum prison cell
saturn ascends, choose one or ten
hang on or be humbled again
clutch it like a cornerstone, otherwise it all comes down
justified denials and crippled to the lonesome end
saturn ascends, comes round again
saturn ascends, the one, the ten
ignorant to the damage done
wear your grudge like a crown of negativity
calculate what you will or will not tolerate
desperate to control all and everything
unable to forgive you scarlet lettermen
wear your grudge like a crown
desperate to control
unable to forgive
and sinking deeper
defining
confining. sinking deeper
controlling
defining. and we´re sinking deeper
saturn comes back around to show you everything
let´s choose what you will
you will not see and then drags you down like a stone or lifts you up again
spits you out like a child, light and innocent
saturn comes back around
lifts you up like a child
or drags you down like a stone
to consume you till you choose to let this go
choose to let this go
give away the stone
let the oceans take and transmutate this cold and fated anchor
give away the stone
let the waters kiss and transmutate these leaden grudges into gold
let go
2. Eon blue apocalypse
-there are no lyrics
3. The patient
a groan of tedium escapes me
startling the fearful
is this a test? it has to be
otherwise i can´t go on
draining patients (patience?), drained vitality
this paranoid, paralyzed vampire act´s a little old
but i´m still right here giving blood, keeping faith
and i´m still right here
but i´m still right here giving blood, keeping faith
and i´m still right here
wait it out
gonna wait it out
be patient
if there were no reward to heal
a loving embrace to see me through
this tedious path i´ve chosen here
i certainly would have walked away, by now
going to wait it out
if there were no desire to heal
a damaged and broken man alone
this tedious path i´ve chosen here
i certainly would have walked away by now
and i still may
i still may
be patient
i must keep reminding myself of this
if there were no reward to heal
a loving embrace to see me through
this tedious path i´ve chosen here
i certainly would have walked away, by now
and i still may
and i still may
and i still may
and i...
gonna wait out
gonna wait it out
wait out
gonna wait it out
4. Mantra
-there are no lyrics
5. Schism
i know the pieces fit, cuz i watched them fall away
mildewed and smoldering
fundamental differing
pure intention juxtaposed will set two lovers souls in motion
disintegrating as it goes testing our communication
the light that fueled a fire that has burned a hole between us so
we cannot seem to reach an end crippling our communication
i know the pieces fit, cuz i watched them tumble down
no fault, none to blame
it doesn´t mean i don´t desire
to point the finger, blame the other, watch the temple topple over
to bring the pieces back together, rediscover communication
the poetry that comes from the squaring off between
and the circling is worth it
finding beauty in the dissonance
there was a time that the pieces fit, but i watched them fall away
mildewed and smoldering, strangled by our coveting
i´ve done the math enough to know the dangers of our second guessing
doomed to crumble unless we grow, and strengthen our communication
cold silence has a tendency to atrophy any sense of compassion
between supposed lovers
between supposed lovers
i know the pieces fit
and i know the pieces fit
6. Parabol
so familiar and overwhelmingly warm
this one, this form i hold now
embracing you, this reality here
This one, this form i hold now
so wide eyed and hopeful
wide eyed and hopefully wild
we barely remember what came before this precious moment
choosing to be here right now
hold on, stay inside this body holding me
reminding me that i am not alone in
this body makes me feel eternal
all this pain is an illusion
7. Parabola
we barely remember who or what came before this precious moment
we are choosing to be here right now
hold on stay inside this holy reality
this holy experience
choosing to be here in...
this body.
this body holding me
be my reminder here that i am not alone in...
this body
this body holding me
feeling eternal all this pain is an illusion
alive
this holy reality, this holy experience
choosing to be here in...
this body
this body holding me
be my reminder here that i am not alone in...
this body
this body holding me
feeling eternal all this pain is an illusion
twirling round with this familiar parable
spinning, weaving round each new experience
recognize this as a holy gift and celebrate this chance to be alive and breathing
a chance to be alive and breathing
this body holding me reminds me of my own mortality
embrace this moment
remember, we are eternal
all this pain is an illusion
8. Ticks & leeches
suck and suck
suckin up all you can suckin up all you can suck and suck
workin up under my patience like a little tick
fat little parasite
suck me dry
my fruit is bruised and borrowed you thieving bastards
you have turned my blood cold and bitter
beat my compassion black and blue
hope this is what you wanted
hope this is what you had in mind
cuz this is what you´re getting
i hope you´re choking... i hope you choke on this
i hope you´re choking... i hope you choke on this
taken all i can take and like and wanted to take and all you can take and all you and we can take
got nothing left to give to you
blood suckin parasitic little...(tick)
blood suckin parasitic little...
blood suckin parasitic little tick
take what you want and then go
hope this is what you wanted
hope this is what you had in mind
cuz this is what you´re getting
suck me dry
suck me dry
suck
suck me dry
sucking me dry
suck
suck me dry
is this what you wanted
is this what you had in mind
is this what you wanted
cuz this this is what you´re getting
i hope... i hope... i hope... you choke
9. Lateralis
black then white are all i see in my infancy
red and yellow then came to be, reaching out to me
lets me see
as below, so above and beyond, i imagine
drawn beyond the lines of reason
push the envelope
watch it bend
over thinking, over analyzing separates the body from the mind
withering my intuition, missing opportunities
and i must feed my will to feel my moment drawing way outside the lines
black then white are all i see in my infancy
red and yellow then came to be, reaching out to me
lets me see
there is so much more and beckons me to look thru to these infinite possibilities
as below, so above and beyond, i imagine
drawn outside the lines of reason
push the envelope
watch it bend
over thinking, over analyzing separates the body from the mind
withering my intuition leaving opportunities behind
feed my will to feel this moment, urging me to cross the line
reaching out to embrace the random
reaching out to embrace whatever may come
i embrace my desire to feel the rhythm, to feel connected
enough to step aside and weep like a widow
to feel inspired
to fathom the power
to witness the beauty
to bathe in the fountain
to swing on the spiral
to swing on a spiral
to...
swing on a spiral of our divinity and still be a human
with my feet upon the ground i move myself between the sounds and open wide to suck it in
i feel it move across my skin
i´m reaching up and reaching out
i´m reaching for the random or what ever will bewilder me
whatever will be willed on me
and following our will and wind we may just go where no one´s been
we´ll ride the spiral to the end and may just go where no one´s been
spiral out... keep going
spiral out... keep going
spiral out... keep going
10. Disposition
mention this to me
watch the weather change
mention this to me
mention something, mention anything
mention this to me
watch the weather change
mention this to me
mention something, mention anything
mention this to me.
watch the weather...
watch the weather change...
11. Reflection
i have come curiously close to the end
beneath my self-induldgent pitiful hole
defeated, i conceded
move closer
i may find comfort here
i may find peace within the emptiness, come closer
it´s calling me
and in my darkest moment feeble and weeping
the moon tells me a secret, a confidant
as full and bright as i am
this light is not my own and
familiar light reflections, pass over me
the source is bright and endless sheen
the source that makes the hole black
without her we are lifeless satellites, drifting
and as i pull my head out
i am without one doubt
you want to peer down here
survey my narcissism
i must crucify the ego
before it´s far too late
i pray the light lifts me out
before i hide away
so crucify the ego
before it´s far too late
and leave behind this place
so negative and blind and cynical
and you will come to find we are all one mind
capable of all that´s imagined and all conceivable
so let the light touch you
so that the words spill through
and let the past break through
bringing out our hope and reason
before we hide away
12. Triad
-there are no lyrics
13. Faaip de oiad
i don´t have a whole lot of time...um
i´m a former employee of area 51
i was let go on a medical discharge about a week ago
and, and...
i´ve kind of been running across the country
damn, i don´t know where to start
they´re, they´re gonna, they´ll triangulate on this
position really really soon
ok, um, um, ok, what we´re thinking of as aliens,
they´re extradimensional beings that, an earlier precursor
of the space program they made contact with
they are not what they claim to be
they´ve infiltrated a lot of aspects of, of, of
the military establishment, particularly the area 51
the disasters that are coming, they, the military,
i´m sorry, the government knows about them
and there´s a lot of safe areas in this world that
they could begin moving the population to now
they are not
they want those major population centers wiped out
so that the few that are left will be more easily controllable....
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