1. Low Self Opinion
I think you got a low self opinion man
I see you standing all by yourself
Unable to express the pain of your distress
You withdraw deeper inside
You alienate yourself
And everybody else
They wonder whatīs on your mind
They got so tired of you
And your self ridicule
They wrote you off and left you behind
You sleep alone at night
You never wonder why
All this bitterness wells up inside you
You always victimize
So you can criticize yourself
And all those around you
The hatred you project
Does nothing to protect you
You leave yourself so exposed
You want to open up
When someone says
Lighten up
You find all your doors closed
Get yourself a break from self rejection
Try some introspection
And you just might find
Itīs not so bad and anyway
At the end of the day
All you have is yourself and your mind
The self hatred that blinds you
Binds you grinds you keeps you down
The world falls down around you
You build up walls around you
You wear disgust like a crown
If you could see the you that I see
When I see you seeing me
Youīd see yourself so differently
Believe me
I know the self doubt that runs inside your mind
I know the self that treats you so unkind
If you could see the you that I see
When I see you
You would see things differently
I assure you
2. Grip
See me - Put yourself in my place
Be me - Put my eyes in your face
Maybe then youīll see why this place terrifies me
And why Iīve got to get myself away
So hard to deal with the ones who canīt feel
They continually blow my mind
No need - Iīve been burned enough times myself
Youīre like me - Sometimes you scare yourself
The things that you think
And the way that you feel
Makes you think youīre all alone
When you go outside
And try to find a familiar mind
It really lets you know that youīre on your own
So unknown
When those walls close in around you
When all about you doubt you
When the world can live without you
Get a grip and keep it
You see how hard theyīll shove you
Hate your guts and tell you they love you
Get a grip right now
You see how far you get pushed
How long theyīll hold you down
Feed you lies
Drive you insane
Give you poison to kill your pain
Know me - I see the fear in your eyes
Pull back - There are some things to realize
So hard to deal with the ones who arenīt real
Itīs unbelievable what theyīll put you through
Twist you up inside
Filthify and punish your mind
You donīt have to live like that
Youīve got to get your self respect
Jump back, get your self respect
Youīve got to jump back
Keep your self respect intact
Youīve got to keep it like that
Your self respect
3. Tearing
The way you look at me
Is tearing me apart
And the way I make you feel
Is tearing you apart
And the things weīre doing to each other
Is tearing us apart
Look at you and me, tearing each other apart
I donīt mean to do it
You donīt mean to do it
So we better stop it now
Because weīre tearing each other apart
Itīs hard to be alone
But itīs harder to be with you
Iīm a lying liar with my pants on fire
Tearing myself apart
Slamming down the phone right in your face
Tearing you apart
So close, too close, not close enough
Tearing each other apart
When I see you
I want to tell you
But then I lose the words
And it tears me apart
Better walk away
Before we crawl away
Iīve got a hole inside
And I keep it deep inside
And Iīm going to go inside
And itīs there Iīm going to hide
Because Iīve got to get away
To see if Iīm ok
Sometimes things donīt work out
It tears you apart, it tears me apart
Sometimes happens all the time
And Iīm feeling torn apart
4. You Didnīt Need
You turned me in and you burned me out
You pulled me in and you locked me out
You ripped your feelings right across my back
You didnīt see that I was bleeding
You turned away when I spoke to you
You looked away when I looked right through you
You didnīt need to do that to me
When I touched you
Did you feel it?
Did you ever feel anything at all?
Do you ever lie awake at night?
Do you ever think of me?
Iīve got my arms wrapped around myself
Youīve got your arms around someone else
I try to tell myself
Iīm not down
I didnīt want it but I got it anyway
I didnīt want it and I couldnīt get away
I canīt deny it
I miss you
Even though it hurts inside
In my dreams I kiss you
I keep a lie alive
I wrack my brain trying to remember
Everything I said to you
I wreck my brain trying to dismember
Any part attached to you
Iīm sorry I still feel this pain inside
It shows on my face like a scar
Itīs something I canīt hide
Some people are better left alone
It hurts so much when you have nothing to say
It hurts so much to have to walk away
5. Almost Real
I looked deep into your eyes
Saw men lying broken
Shattered at the bottom of your well
You took their simple affection
Turned it into bad infection
Sent them packing straight to hell
I see what sweats you
Reality threatens you
You canīt hide yourself from me
When you see the one that sees through you - Itīs me
Canine men
Fighting, lying, trying to be the one
That gets to feel your touch
I see them lined up like broken heroes
Spitting out pieces of their broken luck
I guess Iīve got good sense and hindsight
Because to me it never meant that much
When you see the one that laughs at you - Itīs me
Wasted time spent thinking about you
You know Iīve come to hate myself
Smashing my hands against the wall
Trying to forget the foolish way I felt
Youīre so kind when it serves you well
Your cruelty
No more trying
No more lying
No more messing around with my mind
Iīm going, Iīm gone
Because now I see you
You must think Iīm blind
When you need those arms around you
You wonīt find my arms around you
When you see the one that sees through you
When you see the one that laughs at you - Itīs me
6. Obscene
Iīm so confused
Canīt find the line
Between what I use and abuse
So unreal
How I lie and try to deny
The things that I feel
Iīll love you and hate you both at the same time
Heal you and hurt you and laugh as you cry
Why I donīt know
Right at you right in you
Right through you right past you I go
Canīt you see
First itīs him then itīs her
Then itīs us then itīs you
Then itīs me
Misery, depression, elation all mine
Refine confinement all my design
You and me
Pathetic we cling
We think that weīre free
Ugly
You and me
You see, you see the real me
So obscene
Flapping wildly
You see what I mean
Keep away
Canīt see why you do what you do
And say what you say
7. What Do You Do
When no one will listen and time wonīt wait
When you see yourself and see the one that you hate
When the night lasts forever and time stands still
When you see yourself and want to kill
When the world doesnīt fit the head on your shoulders
When you punch the walls and feel the worldīs fist
The big ideas you have leave you feeling so small
I can see it in your eyes you canīt deal with it all
What do you do when you want to get over
What do you do when you want to get through
What do you do when you just canīt take it
What do you do when you just canīt fake it anymore
Feel the pressure
Feel it squeeze
The eyes in your head
The heart in your chest
Whereīs the answer
Whereīs the release
What do you do
When the lies that they told and the price that you paid
Force you to see the mistake that you made
When they shake your hand and stab your back
When frustration paints your four walls black
When they pick you up and let you fall
When you find their something is nothing at all
When ends miss ends and the endlessness sends you
Down to the bottom of the drain in pain
When youīre pushed to the edge and canīt maintain
8. Blues Jam
They always pry
They always want to know why
And then they pull you in
And then you want to die
Youīll burn so deep inside
And then it gets on top of you
It wonīt let you go
Believe me when I tell you
Life will not break your heart
Itīll crush it
You never felt so good
You never felt so well
And then you open your heart right up
And say come on in
And then thatīs when you stop breathing, man
And the bleeding will never end
Heart smasher
Knives in your mind
9. Another Life
You must think youīre going to live forever
I listen to the lies as they fall from your face
You must think that you are mighty clever
Canīt you find a better way to deal with this place
Watching your life die
Weīre all watching your life die
Your hands are wet - Your mouth is dry
You shake and sweat - You want to die
Your eyes are hot - Your skin is cold
Youīre so young - But you look so old
Lie in bed all day staring at the ceiling
Your friends come around
Because they wonder how youīre feeling
You send them all away
Because you canīt identify
They donīt know you
Theyīre not even high
So high
See the monkeyīs eyes. Look deep into the monkeyīs eyes as he comes
to you smiling. Day after day the monkeyīs eyes become bigger and
bigger. Soon the monkeyīs eyes are all you can see. Soon the monkeyīs
eyes become your eyes. You feel the monkeyīs bite. Monkey see monkey
do, monkey will destroy you.
If I could make wishes true
I know what Iīd wish for you
Another life
Another life for you
10. Just Like You
I am the man from a human choke hold
I am the product of your restraint
I watched the years pass by me
Never once did I complain
Never once did I say no
Now I watch myself explode
My body is scarred by age
Now you get to taste my rage
From the wreckage of humiliation
I got my self respect
I pulled myself together
What the hell did you expect
You should see the pain I go through
When I see myself I see you
Everything that you did I do
When I see myself I see you
Rage
Iīm just like you
My flesh isnīt my flesh
My blood isnīt my blood
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