1. Only The Strong
what makes you think that itīll all work out in the end.
afraid to feel bad. better off to try and pretend. Iīm
immortal, immune to all that is wrong. just keep on wishing.
crossing my fingers. so long. is this helping? iīm growning
weaker each day. canīt stop whining.
still afraid of what i might say or reactions, that control us one and all.
Itīs mine, itīs pure and as decent as i can make myself.
Inside, we all know, only the strong survive.
Why donīt you think about that?
so now iīm bleeding on myself yes once again.
seems i trusted another deceitful freind. my fault. shouldīve known the deal.
keep your friends close, but your enemies closer, for real.
seems easy, but nothing could be so hard. trying to guess lifes
dealing. whatīs the next card? Iīm surely folding.
i donīt like this hand at all.
Keep those eyes wide open, here comes a blind side.
maybe things happen for a reason and wherein lies the answer.
to overcome the grieving of lifes unruly lessons. iīm handed
in sucession. it builds my pain which makes me strong.
Why donīt you think about that??
2. Payback
Thereīs another reflection involved up in my mind
A wholeness that has just been lost
Striving hard for perfection but still nothing to find
Some value with a cheaper cost
And as I reach out to hear you the sound is so muffled
It makes a lesser man of me
So the only thing left to bring up to date is
You suck!
Watch me fall while I go down
Iīm taking all you bastards to the ground with
me then Iīll frown
On your fucking whole life
The systematic hype still means a bit much to me
Iīm at the point of retraction and still slipping further
This place is getting worse for me
Thereīs such a lack of direction and models to live by
No bright skies ahead of me
And as I reach out for your hand you turn and
then wander
Why I simply just canīt see
No separation of gender no difference in me
Youīre just leading me on and on and on
You lead me on and on and on and on
Pretty soon itīs gonna come back and be your turn
Pretty soon youīre gonna be the one that burns
Your turn now
3. My Letter
This is my letter to you
We started following a certain description.
We started simple and fair once again
Before there wasnīt any need for an answer
Things were much different then
But now you question who I am.
Who I am inside
Now thereīs nothing left to hide.
So here it goes
This is my letter
Hope youīre alright. Itīs been rough for me
thinking all night. About the places Iīd be
If I maybe, just did a little bit more you mightīve
Let me, become a man for sure
And if I might, express one concern it seems an
issue. All day at every turn
Whatīs the next step, the latest hole in my life
Whatīs next for me to learn
Engulf myself into a permanent mystery.
No one day just as the next.
not for me
Itīs so confusing when I look at my history.
I just canīt handle that yet.
No
One more friendship ends.
And then for awhile.
I can breathe again
4. Get Up Again
Here we go again
A very temperamental process, beginning with
all of our excess
Affecting our very own ingest, this side of
you is speechless
Overwhelmed with an abscess, creating new diseases
And infecting whomever it pleases, weīve been
living this way for too long, too long
Then I noticed a difference, in the way that I
saw other insects
Who were living a life of indulgence, sheltered
by their parents
Such an unlucky existence, not given a
chance to experience
And make their own decisions, I wouldnīt trade
my own mistakes at all
Reach out your hands
Out for the ones who, aid when the going gets rough
Until the end.
These are the ones who, help when the times get tough
And times will get tough.
Get up again.
Times will get tough.
Get up again
Here it comes once again
5. Whole
So Maybe I am Bound By Fate
A Problematic Scarring Induced By Hate
It Never Seems To All Pan Out
Is That What All This Teaching Is Needed To Scout
You Seemed To Have A Bad Effect
Your Rules And Contradictions I would Neglect
Though Not My Fault You Made Me Feel
Like My Own Education Wasnt Truly Real
Then You Came Right In Tearing Out My Soul
How Could All This Loss Be Your Only Goal
I`m Left Standing Here Desperate In The Cold
Since You Took Your Life Mine Has not Been Whole
So There I Stood A Scolded Child
The Reasons Never Questioned My Pains Been Filed
Inside This Place That Makes Me Feel
I learned Life Is Unfair And That Is Very Real
While You Try To Overcome The Lesson
Makeing The most Of Those Questions That Just
Keeps Me Guessing
I`m Looking Longer, Harder, Further Than I Ever Have
Solitude Breaking Me Down You Always Seemed Glad
To Put Me down And Stick Me In That little Pit
Personal Growth As A child That Mattered Not A Bit
Then I Became The Person That You Hated Most
Disrespecting The Father, Son, And Holy Ghost
A Small Example Of What The Things You`ve Done To Me
Have Changed In My Life And Changed The Things
I`ll Never Be
I`ll Never Be
6. Amendment
Come on and brace your face
Engulfed up in the rat race we hold our futures down
So just resist the plot and find the answer
etched eternal
as we self destruct
day by day
one by one
more example of disrespect
that you seem to offer no more than complete neglect
a generation with fate all tied
this aint a game
we dont enjoy this ride
try to perceive the lie
all caught up in your own high
opinions of yourself
should be concerned about your life
theres been enough strife to crash a persons hope
and as the days delay our every other move
weīve been consumed by apathy
thats right
it has become a pain
inside my brain is screaming
look what youīve done to me
Break
its just the break weīre givin em
Break
its just the break that you`re givnī em
Break
layed to waste out in the open
turned away once again
this isnīt right
this ainīt supposed to happen
now lifeīs too short
we shouldnīt have to die
and i have had to stop all of my emotions
why
oh bittering faith escapes agian, agian
just look at what we have done
will you look at who weīve become
priorities astray
it goes on and on each day
weīve wrecked their only try
and still we wonder why
weīre recipients
Of hate Motherfucker
break your back
just once and then you know
you gotta
face your fright
thatīs right
yeah
with your five second morals and your three second smile
you just
face your fright
thatīs right
yeah
with your five second morals and your three second smile
you just
face your fright
thatīs right
yeah
with your five second morals and your three second smile
you just
face your fright
thatīs right
yeah
with your five second morals and your three second smile
you just
7. Scheme
It woke up in me years ago how this was meant to be
all of those falsehoods plain to see they dug
and hung their greed
will there be profit you could see if only we were blind
lonely and sheltered, our life is free but itīs
still one step behind
just like me, they tried their rules on me
they tried their rules on me, me, me
i broke those chains and fucking split
and so you and so you and so you and so you
pass all the fascist asses ignore those classes
of bottleneck masses
producing an all but awful stench, delivering a
section off all the money stole and spent
as you start to recognize youīre in the game
growing afflictions head to toe, this never
should have been
but placing blame is cowardly restructure must begin
will there be profit you could see if only we were blind
lonely and sheltered your life is free, but itīs
still one step behind
yes and the playing board is you...
8. What I Have To Do
Well it seems as though everyoneīs been led astray far away from.
From what we know, still canīt find a reason or
the right words to say. Itīll be ok.
Wrapped up in all the things that are wrong.
Itīs the only trial so far, as the verdict falls down you still break away.
Caught up in a social degradation, you canīt even see the truth.
Weīre only half as good at personal relations, look around and see the proof.
Only a few of us go in the right direction, even though weīre singled out.
Itīs the only thing that keeps
me alive, I do what I have to do.
How was I to know, force fed corporate trials each day, every single day.
But we must grow, echoing the single most thing in the way.
Not slipping, still drifting, falling one step further from the norm.
What is the norm? Not living, longing, trying so much
harder than before. What if I, what if I run far away?
Would I still be seen the same? Break away.
Itīs what I want.
9. Inner Strength
Here we sit all alone in an outnumbered fight
led to decipher between wrong and right
and some may fail at this joke that some of
us call life
yes at this game some call life
but the system canīt bail me out of hell
iīve made this descovery and it has helped
all iīve got is myself i have faith in that
believe and one day youīll do just as well now
as you were you little puppet you pauper you
freak thatīs right
thatīs what some of them have said to me
so i object and try to figure things out for myself
iīm building up full emotional wealth
the inner strength is what the hate it wants
us not to feel
itīs time that we helped thereīs no room to fail
you already know the way out of hell
all we got is ourselves i have faith in that
believe and one day
weīll put the system in jail, weīll put the system in jail
i made it through scraped black and blue
but so can you i made it through so black and blue
but you can too i made it through scraped
black and blue
but so can you iīve made it through
weīll all make it through
10. Best I Am
Long.
I`ve Been Running away for far too long
Afraid of what
Afraid of what I know is soon to come
I may not be much of an example right now
But I can give you all of my knowledge on how
to get along in this place
right now all I can say
Is that I will do the best that I can
to be a good example of man
I know one day that You`ll understand
you deserve the best that I am
you deserve the best that I am
It`s So hard
so hard to think about when I was child
so angry at life
I blamed the world for such a long long time
But Things happened so quickly
some people just go
I needed answers to heal me
I wanted to know how to get by
and now its my turn to say
This is all for you
everything in this world
everything in my world
everything in your world
things wont always go right in this life
theres always changes
we`ll make it
11. Out Of Whack
maybe nobody told you about this life
maybe nobody answered your questions why
simple revelations they come in time
those liars told us things would all be fine
born out of whack give him something possible
you thought it wouldīve mattered
not likely to change things weīve come too far
where innocent young kids are put behind bars
but itīs an easy decision banished so far
youīre not as civil as you think you are
born out of whack give him something possible
you thought it wouldīve mattered
you say weīre all born out of whack
well donīt act so surprised how thereīs been
a lot going on
since you realized that weīre all just kids trying
to get along
so answer one thing
are you gonna stay inside. are you gonna stay
inside of our minds?
are we all born wrong?
born out of whack give him something possible
you thought it wouldīve mattered
12. Reliance
so you think the areas gray but it continues each day
a bad example of the attitude you portray
act like I owe you my life you should be
burdened with strife
so i continue to pray hope that
youīll go away
a bad addiction to a home wrecking thing who plays
with my heart and thatīs the bottom line
i feel so empty
what can you give me that I canīt give myself
and what part of my life can you fix, that I
canīt fix my damn self
god iīm losing patience each day iīve put
myself in harms way
canīt seem to justify none of the shit you say
canīt find another way out hereīs nothing left
but pure doubt
iīm on the verge of pulling my hair straight out
so if you listen to me not to the powers that be
weīre not supposed to be together canīt you see
in decision is the bottom line i feel so empty now
iīm gonna show you now this time iīm getting out
iīve said it many times but this time I have
figured out
just how iīm moving on itīs taken way too long
inside I know iīll feel much better when youīre
really gone
13. One More Time
There must be something you can recommend.
Iīve lost my faith in man again
So sick of trying to pretend.
Same pain over and over again
How much longer do you think weīll stand.
So little left here to live for
By the time my life is at its end.
I want it back one more time
Let me try one more time.
Live my life one more time
We never seem ready for this
It keeps on haunting me day after day. Am I
going about things the right way
Which truthīs to pass and with which truthīs to say
Itīs all so hard Iīm just so damn afraid
Had about as much as I can take.
So little left here to live for
By the time my life is at its end.
Iīll want it back
I need the chance to live my life one more time
Give me the chance to live my life one more time
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