1. Tolerate
Itīs been like this forever...
No more...
I hate my fucking life
I donīt give a fuck
About all of your problems
I could give a rats ass
How your feeling today
Take your wordly advice
And shove it straight up your ass
Thanks for coming around
To fuck up my day
I try
Tolerate
Goodbye
Take me
Look at you, I canīt
You donīt see the whole picture
Take my bed of dirt
Cold and empty iīll stay
Whatīs the point of trying
To stay above the surface
Take my life from me
Help me to ease my pain
Try to see the way around you
I canīt find it
Try to take the path behind me
Canīt rewind it
Stick your finger in my face and
I will break it
Leave me with an after taste
2. Come Again
Mother Fucker
You push yourself on me
You force yourself on me
You free yourself through me
Youīd better save yourself from me
Everytime you want me to be
Something i could never be
Youīll have to wait and see
Till the next time that you have to
Come again
This time you will
Come again
I hate myself for you
I break myself for you
Iīd kill myself for you
Iīd better save myself from you
Everytime you want me to be
Something you could never be
Guess youīll have to wait and see
Till the next time that you have to
If you have to walk my way
Have something to say
Get the fuck away
Canīt take one more day
I cannot conform
Hate me
Kill me
Fuck me
Save me
3. Break
I walk alone
I am alone
I think alone
Iīll die alone
Donīt think I can make it on my own
I think I need someone to save me
Such is life
So sad but true
Kill everything
Thatīs close to you
Try to decide what not to do
You know you cannot control me
I think thereīs no point in
Going any further
Than Iīve gone already
Canīt keep my hands steady
Sadness
Everyday for me
You canīt
Take that away from me
All these fucking thoughts inside my head
Are almost more than i can take
You push and push on me
Youīre gonna keep on pushing
Till I break
You think you control me
Have no chains to hold me
Only thing that saves me
Voices just might kill me
4. Painful
I light another cigarette
Stop to think about it
Come to no conclusions
Take each step as it comes
Hold no prisioners except myself
Painful thoughts denied
Try to explain
My loss of words
Fuck you, I piss upon you all
My head is a barricade
Filled with peaceful thoughts
With evil outcomes
No one understands
Try to break the barrier
I see no outlet
No ones there to catch me when I fall
5. Nameless
Canīt you see?
I fucking hate me
The walls around me caving in
Cracked and gray
Remind me of myself, i need some help
Thereīs no one else
Iīm empty
Addicted
Pissed off
And still afraid
Of what you
Have left me
To live in
This mess youīve made
I feel
Useless
Jaded
Nameless
The ride is over iīve come down
Hate to be
Canīt rely on myself, for my own health
To just say no
Iīm fucked up
Distorted
Dysfunctional
And drained
All of my deep rooted
Fears seem to get
The best of me
I hate the way you fuck with me
Canīt rely on open eyes to see
Force these painful visions from my head
You wonīt be happy till I break down
Nameless
(Canīt you see? I fucking hate me)
6. Mudshovel
You take away
I feel the same
You take away
I feel the same
All the promises you made to me
You made in vain
I lost myself inside
Your tainted smile again
You can feel my anger
You can feel my pain
You can feel this torment
Driving me insane
I canīt fight these feelings
They bring only pain
You canīt take away
Make me whole again
I feel betrayed
Stuck in your ways
And you rip me apart with the
Brutal things you say
I canīt deal with this shit anymore
I just look away
Mudshovel
You take away
I feel the same
All these promises
You promised only pain
If you take away
And leave me with nothing again
You will feel my anger
You will feel my pain
You will feel my torment
Iīll drive you insane
I wonīt fight these feelings
I will bring you pain
I wonīt take away
Iīll be whole again
Mudshovel
7. See Thru All
"What is your fucking problem?"
"You wanna know what my problem is?"
Alone, I walk beside myself
Alone, you put me on your shelf
Alone, with my insanity
Alone, no one to blame but me
But if you had told me when I was much younger
That life has a way of pulling you right under
I wouldnīt be standing here preaching my hate
I stand at the edge staring into my fate
I see thru you
What makes you think that youīre god?
I see thru you
Pick up the pieces as i fall apart
I see thru you
Why must you fuck with me this way?
I see thru you
(No one to blame but me?)
Betrayed, you left me here for dead
Betrayed, by the voices in my head
Betrayed, left me out in the rain
Betrayed, nothing left but pain
Iīm sick of the answers
Your cannibal instincts and false dedications
You leave me here cold, nothing left but my shell
To die while iīm living and burn in my hell
I pick you apart little by little
Till nothing is left but the look on your face
Once inside out i can get at whatīs inside
Beneath your facad i can see your disgrace
The walls that you build up will crumble around you
The pain you will feel as you wither away
The sun though it comes up will warm you no longer
Your strongest emotions
I pick you apart little by little
Till nothing is left but the look on your face
Once inside out I can get at whatīs inside
Beneath your facad I can see your disgrace
8. Question
Which way do I go?
Pain, I wallow, I cannot keep it down
Hate, I swallow, I cannot keep it down
Down
You, I hate you, I cannot keep you down
You, Iīll rape you, I cannot keep it down
Down
You before me
I canīt take any more
Of what you have to offer
My ears are sore
Leave my feelings
In a heap by the door
Canīt go up any further
Come crashing back down
Down
Pain, I wallow, I cannot keep it down
Hate, I swallow, I cannot keep it down
Down
9. No Oneīs Kind
What the fuckīs the purpose
I didnīt scratch the surface
Immune to what your saying
All along decaying
Canīt see thru the fire
Darkness lone desire
Quiet in my corner
Building up the border
Canīt stand the way you make me feel today
No oneīs kind is all youīll ever be
Canīt see thru the rain
Too much time
No sublime
Loss of energy
No symmentry
Fuck society
Lost in naivety
Canīt bite the hand that feeds me
Canīt take away whatīs in me
Addicted to the feelings
Lose touch with all iīve know
The cobwebs on the ceiling
Make me aware that iīm all alone
The endless rain washes all away
Makes clean the mess I have made
10. Self Destruct
Watch me suffer
Youīll feel better
Stick the needle in my vein
Lost my feelings with my dealing
Thoughts of only you remains
Fuck
Rip and tear
In my despair
Agonizing over shit
Feel the needle burn and tingle
My bad habits deal with it
Fuck
I will self destruct
My light has slowly faded
Broken and degredated
Suffocate in my sorrow
Maybe iīll die tomorrow
This riot that iīve sited
Came to you uninvited
Truth hurts when itīs in your face
Are you afraid of it?
Fuck
I will self destruct
I think iīm gonna think iīm gonna..
I will self destruct
11. Four Walls
The thoughts from my mind
Command my lips to say I hate you
The thoughts from my mind
Command my hands to cut your silken flesh
The thoughts from my mind
Command my feet to stomp your head
The thoughts from my mind have one question
When will this ever end?
Not much to the life I live
Same four walls
I have nothing left to give
Please take it all away
Same four walls
The thoughts from my mind
Feel the pain as rats claw at my flesh
The thoughts from my mind
Feel the joy as the needle hits my vein
The thoughts from my mind
Smells the stench as shit runs down my leg
The thoughts from my mind ask for sanity
Now for this I beg
The thoughts from my mind
Command my lips to say i hate you
The thoughts from my mind
Command my hands to cut your silken flesh
The thoughts from my mind
Command my feet to stomp your head
The thoughts from my mind have one question
When will I be dead?
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