1. Foreword
-Intro-
2. Donīt Stay
Sometimes I need to remember just to breathe
Sometimes I need you to stay away from me
Sometimes Iīm in disbelief, I didnīt know
Somehow I need you to go
Donīt stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
Just give me myself back and
Donīt stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
Just give me myself back and
Donīt stay
Sometimes I feel like I trusted you too well
Sometimes I just feel like screaming at myself
Sometimes Iīm in disbelief, I didnīt know
Somehow I need to be alone
Donīt stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
Just give me myself back and
Donīt stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
Just give me myself back and
Donīt stay
I donīt need you anymore
I donīt want to be ignored
I donīt need one more day
Of you wasting me away
I donīt need you anymore
I donīt want to be ignored
I donīt need one more day
Of you wasting me away
With no appologies
Donīt stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
Just give me myself back and
Donīt stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
Just give me myself back and
Donīt stay
Donīt stay
Donīt stay
3. Somewhere I Belong
When this began
I had nothing to say
And Iīd get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(I was confused)
And I let it all out to find
That Iīm not the only person with these things in mind
(Inside of me)
But all the vacancy the words revealed
Is the only real thing that Iīve got left to feel
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck hollow and alone
And the fault is my own
And the fault is my own
I wanna heal, I wanna feel
What I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain Iīve felt so long
(Erase all the pain till itīs gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel
Like Iīm close to something real
I wanna find something Iīve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
And Iīve got nothing to say
I canīt believe I didnīt fall right down on my face
(I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find
That itīs not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
(So what am I)
What do I have but negativity
Cuz I canīt justify the way everyone is looking at me
(Nothing to lose)
Nothing to gain, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own
And the fault is my own
I wanna heal, I wanna feel
What I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain Iīve felt so long
(Erase all the pain till itīs gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel
Like Iīm close to something real
I wanna find something Iīve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
I will never know myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel anything else
Until my wounds are healed
I will never be anything till I break away from me
I will break away
Iīll find myself today
I wanna heal, I wanna feel
What I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain Iīve felt so long
(Erase all the pain till itīs gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel
Like Iīm close to something real
I wanna find something Iīve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like Iīm
Somewhere I belong
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like Iīm
Somewhere I belong
Somewhere I belong
4. Lying From You
When I pretend
Everything is what I want it to be
I look exactly like what you had always
Wanted to see
When I pretend
I can forget about the criminal I am
Stealing second after second just cuz I know I can
But I canīt pretend this is the way itīll stay
Iīm just trying to bend the truth
I canīt pretend Iīm who you want me to be
So Iīm lying my way from you
(No/No turning back now)
I wanna be pushed aside
So let me go
(No/No turning back now)
Let me take back my life
Iīd rather be all alone
(No turning back now)
Anywhere on my own
Cuz I can see
(No/No turning back now)
The very worst part of you
Is me
I remember what they taught to me
Remember condescending talk of who I oughta be
Remember listening to all of that and this again
So I pretended up a person who was fitting in
And now you think this person really is me and
Iīm trying to bend the truth
But the more I push the more Iīm pulling away
Cuz Iīm lying my way from you
(No/No turning back now)
I wanna be pushed aside
So let me go
(No/No turning back now)
Let me take back my life
Iīd rather be all alone
(No turning back now)
Anywhere on my own
Cuz I can see
(No/No turning back now)
The very worst part of you
The very worst part of you
Is me
This isnīt what I want it to be
I never thought that what I said
Would have you running from me
Like this
This isnīt what I want it to be
I never thought that what I said
Would have you running from me
Like this
This isnīt what I want it to be
I never thought that what I said
Would have you running from me
Like this
This isnīt what I want it to be
I never thought that what I said
Would have you running from me
Like this
(No/No turning back now)
I wanna be pushed aside
So let me go
(No/No turning back now)
Let me take back my life
Iīd rather be all alone
(No turning back now)
Anywhere on my own
Cuz I can see
(No/No turning back now)
The very worst part of you
The very worst part of you
Is me
5. Hit The Floor
There are just too many
Times that people
Have tried to look inside of me
Wondering what I think of you
And I protect you out of courtesy
Too many times that Iīve
Held on when I needed to push away
Afraid to say what was on my mind
Afraid to say what I need to say
Too many
Things that you said about me
When Iīm not around
You think havin the upper hand
Means you got to keep puttin me down
But Iīve had too many stand-offs with you
Itīs about as much as I can stand
Just wait until the upper hand
Is mine
One minute youīre up top
(The next youīre not)
(Watch it drop
Making your heart stop
(Just before you hit the floor)
One minute youīre up top
(The next youīre not)
(Missed your shot)
Making your heart stop
(You think you won)
And then itīs all gone
So many people like me
Put so much trust in all your lies
So concerned with what you think
To just say what we feel inside
So many people like me
Walk on eggshells all day long
All I know is that all I want
Is to feel like Iīm not stepped on
There are so many things you say
That make me feel like youīve crossed the line
What goes up will surely fall
And Iīm counting down the time
Cause Iīve had so many stand-offs with you
Itīs about as much as I can stand
So Iīm waiting until the upper hand
Is mine
One minute youīre up top
(The next youīre not)
(Watch it drop)
Making your heart stop
(Just before you hit the floor)
One minute youīre up top
(The next youīre not)
(Missed your shot)
Making your heart stop
(You think you won)
And then itīs all gone
And then itīs all gone
And then itīs all gone
And then itīs all gone
Now itīs all gone
I know Iīll never trust a single thing you say
You knew your lies would divide us
But you lied anyway
And all the lies have got you floating
Up above us all
But what goes up has got to fall
One minute youīre up top
(The next youīre not)
(Watch it drop)
Making your heart stop
(Just before you hit the floor)
One minute youīre up top
(The next youīre not)
(Missed your shot)
Making your heart stop
(You think you won)
And then itīs all gone
And then itīs all gone
And then itīs all gone
And then itīs all gone
And then itīs all gone
Now itīs all gone
6. Easier To Run
Itīs easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
Itīs so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
Something has been taken
From deep inside of me
A secret Iīve kept locked away
No one can ever see
Wounds so deep they never show
They never go away
Like moving pictures in my head
For years and years theyīve played
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could
Stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I would
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could
Stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all my shame to the grave
Itīs easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
Itīs so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
Sometimes I remember
The darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories
I wish I didnīt have
Sometimes I think of letting go
And never looking back
And never moving forward so
There would never be a past
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could
Stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I would
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could
Stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all my shame to the grave
Just washing it aside
All of the helplessness inside
Pretending I donīt feel misplaced
Is so much simpler than change
Itīs easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
Itīs so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone
Itīs easier to run
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made
Itīs easier to go
If I could change I would
Take all the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all the shame to the grave
8. Faint
I am a little bit of loneliness
A little bit of disregard
Handful of complaints but I canīt help the fact
That everybody can see these scars
I am what I want you to want
What I want you to feel
But itīs like no matter what I do
I canīt convince you
To just believe this is real
So I let go watching you turn your back
Like you always do
Face away and pretend that Iīm not
But Iīll be there cuz youīre all that Iīve got
I canīt feel the way I did before
Donīt turn your back on me
I wonīt be ignored
Time wonīt heal this damage anymore
Donīt turn your back on me
I wonīt be ignored
I am a little bit insecure, a little unconfident
Cuz you donīt understand, I do what I can
But sometimes I donīt make sense
I am what you never want to say
But Iīve never had a doubt
Itīs like no matter what I do
I canīt convince you
For once just to hear me out
So I let go watching you turn your back
Like you always do
Face away and pretend that Iīm not
But Iīll be here cuz youīre all that Iīve got
I canīt feel the way I did before
Donīt turn your back on me
I wonīt be ignored
Time wonīt heal this damage anymore
Donīt turn your back on me
I wonīt be ignored
Hear me out now
Youīre going to listen to me
Like it or not
Right now
Hear me out now
Youīre going to listen to me
Like it or not
Right now
I canīt feel the way I did before
Donīt turn your back on me
I wonīt be ignored
I canīt feel the way I did before
Donīt turn your back on me
I wonīt be ignored
Time wonīt heal this damage anymore
Donīt turn your back on me
I wonīt be ignored
I canīt feel
I wonīt be ignored
Time wonīt heal
Donīt turn your back on me
I wonīt be ignored
9. Figure.09
Nothin ever stops all these thoughts
And the pain attached to them
Sometimes I wonder why this is happenin
Itīs like nothin I can do would distract me when
I think of how I shot myself in the back again
Cuz from the infinite words I can say I
Put all pain you gave to me on display
But didnīt realize instead of settin it free I
Took what I hated and made it a part of me
It never goes away
It never goes away
And now
Youīve become a part of me
Youīll always be right here
Youīve become a part of me
Youīll always be my fear
I canīt separate
Myself from what Iīve done
Giving up a part of me
Iīve let myself become you
Hearin your name the memories come back again
I remember when it started happenin
I see you n every thought I had and then
The thoughts slowly found words attached to them
And I knew as they escaped away
I was committin myself to īem and everyday
I regret sayin those things cuz now I see that I
Took what I hated and made it a part of me
It never goes away
It never goes away
And now
Youīve become a part of me
Youīll always be right here
Youīve become a part of me
Youīll always be my fear
I canīt separate
Myself from what Iīve done
Giving up a part of me
Iīve let myself become you
It never goes away
It never goes away
It never goes away
It never goes away
Get away from me
Give me my space back you gotta just go
Everything comes down the memories of you
I kept it in without lettin you know
I let you go so get away from me
Give me my space back you gotta just go
Everything comes down the memories of You
I kept it in without lettin you know
I let you go
And now
Youīve become a part of me
Youīll always be right here
Youīve become a part of me
Youīll always be my fear
I canīt separate
Myself from what Iīve done
Giving up a part of me
Iīve let myself become you
Iīve let myself become you
Iīve let myself become lost
Inside these thoughts of you
Giving up a part of me
Iīve let myself become you
10. Breaking The Habit
Memories consume
Like opening the wounds
Iīm picking me apart again
You all assume
Iīm safe here in my room
Unless I try to start again
I donīt want to be the one
The battles always choose
Cuz inside I realize that Iīm the one confused
I donīt know whatīs worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I donīt know why I instigate
And say what I donīt mean
I donīt know how I got this way
I know itīs not alright
So Iīm breaking the habit
Iīm breaking the habit tonight
Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I have no options left again
I donīt want to be the one
The battles always choose
Cuz inside I realize that Iīm the one confused
I donīt know whatīs worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I donīt know why I instigate
And say what I donīt mean
I donīt know how I got this way
Iīll never be alright
So Iīm breaking the habit
Iīm breaking the habit tonight
Iīll paint it on the walls
Cuz Iīm the one at fault
Iīll never fight again
And this is how it ends
I donīt know whatīs worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
But now I have some clarity
To show you what I mean
I donīt know how I got this way
Iīll never be alright
So Iīm breaking the habit
Iīm breaking the habit
Iīm breaking the habit tonight
10. From The Inside
I donīt know who to trust
No surprise
Everyone feels so far away from me
heavy thoughts sift through dust
And the lies
Trying not to break
But Iīm so tired of this deceit
Everytime I try to make myself
Get back up on my feet
All I ever think about is this
All the tiring time between
And how
Trying to put my trust in you
Just takes so much out of me
I take everything from the inside
And throw it all away
Cuz I swear for the last time
I wonīt trust myself with you
Tension is building inside
Steadily
Everyone feels so far away from me
Heavy thoughts forcing their way
Out of me
Trying not to break
But Iīm so tired of this deceit
Everytime I try to make myself
Get back up on my feet
All I ever think about is this
All the time and time between
And how
Trying to put my trust in you
Just takes so much out of me
I take everything from the inside
And throw it all away
Cuz I swear for the last time
I wonīt trust myself with you
I wonīt waste myself on you
You, you
Waste myself on you
You, you
Iīll take everything from the inside
And throw it all away
īCause I swear for the last time
I wonīt trust myself with you
Everything from the inside
And throw it all away
Cuz I swear for the last time
I wonīt trust myself with you
You, you
11. Nobodyīs Listening
Coming at you
Coming at you
Yo peep the style and the kids checking for it
The number one question is
How could you ignore it
We drop right back in the cut
Over basement tracks
With raps that got you backinī this up like
(Rewind that)
Weīre just rolling with the rhythm
Rise from the ashes of stylistic division
With these non-stop lyrics of life living
Not to be forgotten
But still unforgiven
But in the mean time
There are those who wanna talk this and that
So I suppose
It gets to a point
Feelings gotta get hurt
And get dirty with the people spreading the dirt
(It goes)
Tried to give you warning
But everyone ignores me
Told you everything loud and clear
But nobodyīs listening
Called to you so clearly
But you donīt want to hear me
Told you everything loud and clear
But nobodyīs listening
I got a heart full of pain
Head full of stress
Handful of anger
Held in my chest
And everything left is a waste of time
I hate my rhymes
(But hate everyone elseīs more)
Iīm riding on the back of this pressure
Guessing that is better
I canīt keep myself together
Because all of this stress
Gave me something to write on
The pain gave me something
I could set my sights on
You never forget the blood sweat and tears
The uphill struggle over years
The fear and trash talking
And the people it was to
And the people that started it
Just like you
Tried to give you warning
But everyone ignores me
Told you everything loud and clear
But nobodyīs listening
Called to you so clearly
But you donīt want to hear me
Told you everything loud and clear
But nobodyīs listening
I got a heart full of pain
Head full of stress
Handful of anger
Held in my chest
Up hill struggle
Blood sweat and tears
Nothing to gain
Everything to fear
Heart full of pain
Head full of stress
Handful of anger
Held in my chest
Up hill struggle
Blood sweat and tears
Nothing to gain
Everything to fear
Heart full of pain
Head full of stress
Handful of anger
Held in my chest
Up hill struggle
Blood sweat and tears
Nothing to gain
Everything to fear
Heart full of pain
Heart full of pain
Heart full of pain
Tried to give you warning
But everyone ignores me
Told you everything loud and clear
But nobodyīs listening
Called to you so clearly
But you donīt want to hear me
Told you everything loud and clear
But nobodyīs listening
I got a heart full of pain
Head full of stress
Nobodyīs listening
Handful of anger
Held in my chest
Nobodyīs listening
Uphill struggle
Blood sweat and tears
Nobodyīs listening
Nothing to gain
Everything to fear
Nobodyīs listening
Coming at you
Coming at you
Coming at you
Coming at you from every side
12. Session
-kein Text
13. Numb
Iīm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless
Lost under the surface
I donīt know what youīre expecting of me
Put under the pressure
Of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow)
(Just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow)
(Just caught in the undertow)
Iīve become so numb
I canīt feel you there
Become so tired
So much more aware
Iīm becoming this
All I want to do
Is be more like me
And be less like you
Canīt you see that youīre smothering me
Holding too tightly
Afraid to lose control
Cuz everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow)
(Just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow)
(Just caught in the undertow)
Iīve become so numb
I canīt feel you there
Become so tired
So much more aware
Iīm becoming this
All I want to do
Is be more like me
And be less like you
But I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me
With someone disappointed in you
Iīve become so numb
I canīt feel you there
Become so tired
So much more aware
Iīm becoming this
All I want to do
Is be more like me
And be less like you
Iīve become so numb I canīt feel you there
Is everything what you want me to be
Iīve become so numb I canīt feel you there
Is everything what you want me to be
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