1. Still
Where youīre at
You shouldnīt be
Although I wish I was there too
Back and forth
Through the course
Of the last few years
My mind is not made up
Still
Do you lie
To everyone
You donīt have to lie to me
Is your sight
Without light
You canīt see me in the dark
When will I start working for me
When will I stand tall like the trees
Am I just paying for sin
Still
2. All Wrong
I hate to
Break it to you
But this convenience ainīt convenient anymore
Now I realize I had different eyes
Back when I thought this was a good thing
Here I am my anger and me
Temper makes it hard to see
This situation Iīm in again
Everything must come to an end now
Thereīs some things that I want to do
And I donīt want to lie to you
But it still makes me go
And do the things I know
All wrong
Iīll dig to
Learn about you
Iīm sure Iīll find you were as evil as me
We can call it even
You can let me leave then
You can leave me to my own thing
3. Fool
These days Iīm getting older
Before my time
To say Iīm getting stronger
Would be a lie
I think youīre trying to break me
Seems so unreal
Donīt know how to take me
Donīt know how I feel
Look around you
Do you see what I see
Other people think you try to
Make a fool of me
It seems to take so long
Till anything gets done
Why do I have to lose to get things
Iīve never won
Iīm defeated again
I see the look on your face
Iīve got that feeling again
My mouth has a bad taste
My hope in empty promise
Put me to shame
I know its what you wanted
I need the pain
I was gonna be someone
You held me down
Didnīt want me to move on
You let me drown
4. Empty
Why wonīt you face me
Itīs been such a long time
Iīm walking a fine line
Now weīre walking out
Why canīt I see things like Iīm supposed to see things
Iīm not supposed to be this way
Not this time around
Sometimes I
Feel so empty
So much pain I still ignore
Everyday I endure
Sometimes I
Feel so empty
So much pain I still ignore
Everyday you want more
My expectations were high in the first place
Were high in the worst way
It leaves me so down
I give up easily
Canīt speak so freely
Wonīt someone release me
Just this time around
5. Donīt Know How To Be
Itīs all too clear now
Well I been running away
Almost on the hour of mostly every day
Now I see colors
That I never seen
And now reddest of them all so vibrant out of me
Without you
I donīt know how to be
See this zero
The lowest of the low
I let you take me down until lower I could not go
Now I see scars
I willingly made
I facilitated one need
Now here I lay
Tell me what was I
What was I thinking
Tell me what was I
What was I thinking
Tell me what was I
What was I thinking
Tell me what was I
What the hell was I thinking
6. No More Love
I can see
See the signs
Iīve been waiting here for you
But nothings getting through
I am gone
Up in the clouds
Prying I can turn
Turn myself around
A year ago
I gave it a year
I hoped it wouldnīt happen
Now its here
It took so long
I canīt carry on
I know the reason that you left me
You had nothing more to give me
No more love
I can see
See your eyes
I can feel your heady stare
I run my fingers through my hear
I am high
As one can be
And I hope I donīt come down
I hate when I come down
A month ago
I know you lied
Took my live into your hands
You just donīt understand
How it feels
To be free
I know the reason that you left me
You had nothing more to give me
7. 23
Iīm breathing the air
The air I always breathe
I donīt have a lot
I want someone to share it with me
I really only want a few things
Theyīve all been taken away
What does the next life bring
I just want to feel O.K.
Iīm searching forever
For someone or something
I want to be high
And I want someone to love me
Iīve spent 23 years now
Trying to get by
Other people make it day to day
I still wonder why
I really only had a few thing
Theyīve all turned to tears
One tried to kill me
The other kept me here
Iīm still here
8. We Were Wrong
Breathe
Turning blue and I canīt
Breathe
Underwater underneath
And weīre way too deep
To save ourselves
Now that you donīt know me
And Iīve been away too long
Have you also been growing
Seen how we were wrong
Deep
My misery is now complete
Iīve been falling under feet
And Iīm way too deep
To save myself
Please Iīm losing consciousness it seems
Like everyoneīs on top of me
And these suffocating dreams
Are real to me
9. Weaken
Here I am
Understand
No one sees
How I feel
How it feels to be free
Why does everything
Come true
The way I donīt want it to
Everyone and everything pushing me to weaken
Feel like I am sinking
Wish that I could push this all away
Please you remember
I will never be the same
Please you remember
I will always
Be ashamed
Here I am
Back again
In the trees
Now Iīm lost
And Iīve lost what was me
How could anyone give me
What I want and what I need
Everyone and everything pushing me to weaken
Feel like I am sinking
Wish that I could push this all away
Push this all away
10. Tortoise
I know what it takes to normalize
To slow me down and cut me down to size
I wanna get that feeling
To touch the ceiling
So send me reeling
I wanna know
How can I ease my mind
Ease my mind
Yeah Iīm being taken away
Iīm feeling that Iīm finding my way
To something thatīs completely overwhelming me
I get tired of most everything
I anxiously await the gifts you bring
I spend my time thinking
And I hate thinking
To stop this thinking I want to know
How can I pass the time, pass the time
11. Scared
Iīm scared of you
Thereīs nothing I can do
No sense in wasting time
I want you out of my mind
You make me feel unhappy
I wish you werenīt real
You only make me unhappy
And I canīt deal with it
I never wanted you
But Iīm afraid itīs true
Youīre gonna catch me by surprise
I hope thereīs time to realize
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